Just Gotta Write to Write

Sometimes you just have to write to write.  Fast forward a few years, and, it still isn't any easier to deal with emotions that... hurt, but, better to deal with them than to bury them under alcohol (trust me).  What is different is learning to deal with the pain.  The mind still goes 1000 miles an hour, thinking ahead, bringing out unreasonable (or reasonable) conclusions to current situations.  The alcoholic mind is great at trying to warp, to twist a situation to its ultimate worst form, daring you to drink it away.  The difference here is that you don't.  That you understand it for what it is, and, even though the mind still works the way it does, you realize that you cannot control the situation, only your part in it.  That is the toughest part of sobriety.  Differentiating between what you can control and what you cannot.  You either need to shake the roots or ride the current.  Sometimes it's best to ride the current, steer where you can, and hope you can reach the shore somewhat unscathed.  One day at a time, eh?